Speaking of blogging, it’s like having a monolog without anyone listening and adding their 2 cents, without the laughing or applauding and of course without the booing. But I would welcome not only their 2 cents but a buck or more of input and the laughing and booing. There is a freedom when you blog that allows your mind to ramble, or be specific. In reality you can ramble and be specific in the same paragraph. It allows you to be entertaining, and serious, it allows you to bare your soul, or make a complete ass of yourself, but for me it allows me to share my thoughts. Since I have started blogging I have read at least 150 inputs from other bloggers, I am truly amazed as what folks write about, I am amazed at the level of effort they put in to their thoughts no matter how long winded or brief they are, and I am glad they take the time and make that effort. My blogging may reach out and touch someone that has COPD, and maybe that someone isn’t coping as well as I think I am, or maybe it will reach out to someone that is coping so much better than I. Either way, if I can get them to share their experiences we can both come away with something more than we had. And this is why I will blog and continue to blog.
My topic of choice throughout my blogs is my dealing with my COPD. Even when I write something and doesn’t mention being sick, or being tired, more than likely a COPD incident cause the initial thought to spring from my head and climb on the paper. When blogging I can speak of things, I can express thoughts, I can share feelings, I can show remorse, I can express joy, not only about COPD, but any topic I want. I can speak of COPD without it feeling like I am trying to have a pity party.
My wife pushed me towards blogging, and I am glad she did. Writing has been painless so far, it seems I have plenty to say, and I don’t seem to be running out of words. Blogging has been rewarding and disappointing at the same time. By the way, the rewards so clearly outweigh any disappointments. Having the freedom to just talk about COPD and the impact it has on me, and those around me lifts a weight from my shoulders, blogging allows me express and share what I am going thru without the burden of trying to temper my thoughts and words to the audience that may be listening (though I still find I do in fact temper what I say). As for disappointing, as I said in an earlier blog, I really thought that all I had to do was write something and I would have thousands of people reading it and hanging on my every word, laughing at myself, that hasn’t quite worked out. But the freedom, the ability, to just write and express makes it all worthwhile. When writing I will always be reaching out to others, especially those with COPD or another terminal disease. Seeking their knowledge, their wisdom, and their input.
Thanks for the opportunity to continue rambling.