I want to share this post with my friends and those that follow my blog. These are simple, but so so very powerful words. I am also convinced that this confession israrely made, that it is bottled up inside and fermenting upon itself. I know not all care givers feel the need to make this confession, and not all of the care givers have these feeling , but for those that have the need, it is a confession that the care giver should make.
If you care for a loved one who has an illness, your good thoughts might sometimes be criss-crossed with bad thoughts like the following:
– I’m so sick of you and this situation!
– You aren’t who you were and I loathe the way you are now.
– Thanks for ruining my life!
– Please stop needing me!
– Thanks for giving me the guilts!
– Why can’t you just die instead of suffering like this?
– I hate loving you.
I told Anthony that sometimes I felt like this and he hugged me close and let me cry.