I hope everyone is okay today and this week. The jukebox is open and today’s post will be brought to you courtesy of Match Box 20. The week has been non-productive in so many ways. I have made no significant progress, the coughing which is semi-constant is productive, and 2 times a day I seem to reach into the depths of my lungs to find that truly gross shit and I have a massive coughing attack which brings most it up. This a good thing, but I would have hoped the coughing would have eased up a bit, but more importantly, I would have hoped that with all the drugs I have had these last 3 weeks that the product would be less offensive. I am having headaches that I don’t normally have and extra strength Tylenol is not effective. The SOB (shortness of breath) is kicking my butt, and being honest I am embarrassed by how hard it has hit me. I did follow-up with Doc Infectious on Tuesday when I had my monthly IVIG treatment. We talked and I got to spit in the cup again, and we added another antibiotic (Zyvox 600mg 2x) to the mix. While holding steady with the Merrem IV and the TOBI (nebulized).
For all the reasons stated above I am going to give this past week a 2.25, and that is a stretch. While I seem to see slight improvements, for every positive I’ve seen, I am finding 1.5 or 2 negative ones. This coming week I see Doc Head and Doc Lungs on Monday and on Tuesday I see Doc Infectious. This brings us to this week’s word, Patience which I will get to in a moment.
Let get the vitals out of the week ending 02/21/14
NR = 3.5 taken 02/19/14 – outside of therapeutic — my medications have been adjusted to get this number down below 3.0
O2 level = 93 taken on 02/21/14
BP 114/62 = taken 02/19/14
Heart rate = 94 taken 02/21/14
Temp = 97.1 taken 02/19/14
Weight = 264 taken in hospital before discharge 02/11/14 — I have looked at the scale in the bathroom several times since last week and it repeatedly says “Stay the F…. off me for the time being!” I am heeding this advice. While I don’t think I have gained much (my appetite has sucked), so I am eating because it is required not for enjoyment.
So ends the technical aspect of my “How I Feel This Week” report moving now to the emotional discussion aspect. BTW I have listened to 12 Match Box 20 songs getting to this point. Rob Thomas has one hell of a voice. I am just saying. Moving now to SRV (for the uninformed Stevie Ray Vaughan) I have only about every song he has recorded LOL.
So as I stated earlier today’s word is “Patience.” Over the years I have heard many phrases regarding “Patience” such as; the patience of a saint, or Patience is the greatest of all virtues, A handful of patience is worth more than a bushel of brains, and Patience is the companion of wisdom, to name a few. Whenever someone approaches me to explain why there is a minor or significant delay, I ask if I look impatience, and if I do to forgive me because I have patience. And as I have aged I truly believed I had developed a level of patience I never had as a child, kid, teenager, young adult, and even early adult. In review I can’t even count the times I have shown true patience. In reviewing the definition of Patience as provided I truly believe that 1, 2 and 3 clearly had me in mind when this dictionary was written.
Patience As defined by Dictionary.com.
Pa-tience – Noun
1. the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
2. an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.
3. quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.
Setting the stage in this manner; CLEARLY I DON’T KNOW MY ASS FROM LEFT FIELD about Patience. LOL LOL. I was in the hospital for 9 days suffering a serious exacerbation of my COPD. Throughout my hospital stay I was given an extensive array of drugs and breathing treatments, all in hopes of getting me better. After 9 days I was sent home with a continuation of the drug therapy, told to rest, take it easy, and to not rush things. I don’t think in fairness I listened to a friggin word. COPD is complicated no exacerbation is like the one before or the one after. Each has its’ own regiment of drugs and treatment, and for these to work it takes PATIENCE !!! Why in the world I can’t get this thru my thick head is beyond me. I get up on my soap box and preach and preach, and sometimes I don’t bother to listen to my own words. Hell last week I said, and I quote “I know that I am still in the recovery mode, and that it will take a couple of weeks to get back to wherever I am going to get back.” So having been V8 slapped in the head today, I realized I need to chill, relax, take it easy and let the medicines do their job. I can’t hurry it, bitching about won’t get me better sooner, I have to let nature and trust my Doctors to do right by me. I share this with you to remind you that when your ill, you to have to have patience, you as well need to listen your doctors, you need to take all your medicines, and follows instructions. Just as I have to. I know it is easy to preach about because I have, now I am going to sit in the front row and follow my own instructions. Please, the next time you are sick please try to remember this post, it may save you a ton of headaches and anxiety, maybe more.
If you have any questions, concerns, comments, or ideas please feel free to ask away. I hope you have a great weekend, and I will be posting again soon. Take care, Bill